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I managed to do some thinking today(despite my crazy work load at the moment) and something struck me. No really, it struck me like a high speed bullet train at rush hour. I switch off from people that hurt me. I had another moment of insanity again but this time it wasn't like yesterday. What I mean by that is, well, the baby didn't move. Usually she does. It's as if I've managed to block out his existence somehow and when the thought of him flashed in my head I seriously had to remember who he was and what happened. All this though didn't last for more that 10 seconds though. My mind just went blank after that and only processed essential thoughts like breathing and other important bodily functions. I only realised a few minutes ago that my brain completely switched itself off to the world. Didn't even realise that was possible.
Well aside from that I'm exhausted. It amazes me how I manage to do the things I do sometimes especially now past 6 and a half months pregnant. I know I need to slow down sometime but I don't think I'll be able to and when Aiko arrives I know I'll be even busier. I don't mind it. Actually I look forward to the challenge ahead.
I got a pretty cool suggestion from a friend today. He reckons I should actually write a book based on the events I recently went through and I thought why not just compile a book with all my blog posts in them. What do you think? Hmmmmm it is a very good idea actually since I, and I quote, "have a way with words". I really do like that idea and I will start compiling a book. And if God willing, I'll manage to get it published and make some dough! Lol.. Ok ambitious but you can't blame a sister for dreaming right? Hmmmm wait.. Maybe it will happen… you never know what God really has in store for me...
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