Meli updated

22 November 2011

11:03 AM

I know I haven't written in a while and honestly aside from being crazy busy over the past week, I have no other excuse as to why I haven't. well a lot has happened since my last post and I really have no idea how I'm managing to stay so clm about it at the moment, soo let's begin shall we?!

Alright so today marks the 12th day since my mom went missing and there literally is no sign of her anywhere. Not even a trace. It's been rather different at home since she completely vanished and I'm not sure what to make of it really. Yes… I am worried about my mother and where on earth she could be and what she could possibly be eating and where she sleeps at night and if she's dressed properly etc. I feel like a mother who's child has run away. It's as if she's completely disappeared off the face of the planet. As if she never really existed in the first place. It really is something else for this to be happening now but I guess one can never control what happens in their lives. You can only learn to adapt to the situation to the best of your ability. I really do hope and pray that someone finds her safe and returns her back to us soon. Pretty movie-like stuff the way this is going down right now.

Ok now on to a bit of lighter news. I had quite an interesting and amazingly blessed week. First I discovered that I've been blessed with one of the most amazing miracles that will go a long way in helping me get everything I need and more for Aiko. I was super shocked when I received the news that I had no idea what to do with myself for a good 24 hours after that. Nothing could have wiped the smile off my face last Tuesday. Nothing at all. Did I mention it's amazing?! Prayer, visualizing and believing that you have something even when you don't, go a long way. I knew I was going to have my breakthrough but I had no idea it would manifest itself in this manner or magnitude. But hey… when God says your breakthrough has arrived, don't doubt it. Even if you don't see it yet, thank Him for it because it is at the time when you least expect it that it shall manifest itself to you( Don't worry guys, I'll elaborate on what I'm talking about soon)

So I went for my 8 month ante-natal checkup last Tuesday and boy was that a visit. No matter how many times I go there, I still will not get used to the needles. They hurt! Ok.. Maybe I overreact when I see a needle, but like who doesn't?! I mean really now?! Who wants or even likes being invaded by a super thin rod and either having it steal your blood or inject something foreign into your body?( If you do, then you are a major weirdo… lol..). I'm glad the ante-natal trips are nearly over though, it's one tough job to give a urine sample when you don't have to pee. Ha-ha… also had a mini argument with my midwife. She reckons I don't eat enough. Aiko is smaller than she should be at this stage(height-wise) plus she's the only one gaining weight and not me. I have no problem with that. It just proves that I do not gain weight, even with my erratic eating habits and a baby growing inside me( Lol… less baby fat to lose :-D).

Geez but for an almost last ante-natal checkup, it was rather nerve wrecking too. Had to do my follow up HIV test. The time leading up to me receiving my results, I was pretty nervous. Even the night before I found it hard to sleep. I don't know why I was but I was. Anyhu my test results came back NEGATIVE! Woooooohoooooo, HIV free baby! Gosh I was so relieved when the counselor told me that. I'm glad my follow up test confirmed the results of the first test. One more thing to thank God for.

All in all it's been a pretty bitter-sweet week. More sweet than bitter though. Was enormously blessed. So today Aiko and I are 33 weeks and 2 days pregnant( That's 8 months, 1 week and 2 days for those who don't know). Pretty exciting that soon she'll be here with me and I get to hold her and kiss her and stare at her for hours at a time(be a valid stalker, you know). She's been pretty active as of late in my womb. It's as if she also senses that her time to meet me is also getting close and she's excited about it. Oh well… for now her and I are one and just like her parents, Aiko doesn't know what the meaning of slowing down is. We busy people…. (^^,)