Motherhood

17 February 2012

14:10 PM

Yay! My angel is 3 weeks old today! I must admit, the past 3 weeks have completely changed the way I view the world and how i handle things. With everyday that passes seem to learn something new about her and myself too in the process. The minute everything just started making sense. I understood why it was better for me to stay single and why, at the stage I am right now in my life, this happened to me. it takes courage to accept and learn from the challenges that do a complete 360 on our lives. it takes even more strength and courage to forgive those who have done the unforgivable to us and had it not been for this, I doubt I would have ever understood why I have such a large capacity to forgive people.

I must admit, at first, having to deal with Aiko's odd sleeping hours and feeding habits was a bit of a challenge but somehow I adapted to them. We've managed to establish some sort of routine and I know what each cry( or at least, her attempts at it) mean. I've been pleasantly surprised to learn that she barely ever cries full on. I've only heard her cry seriously 3 times since she was born. Gotta love that hehehe..

Eh but she eats! She eats just like me if not more and I'm the one bearing the bruises. Lol. Well not that I'm complaining that she has a a healthy appetite. My problem is that my breasts are the ones that are suffering her feasting. At one point, I had her attached to my boob for a solid 2 hours! Yes, you read right, 2 hours! Well I just fell asleep. I was already too tired from my irregular sleep hours. you'd think she'd be full for a couple of hours after her feast, but nooooo, she was up again less than3 hours later ready to eat again! Heh?! Is this the monster i created?! Lol.. Not sure how to curb her appetite because the bigger she seems to be getting the smaller I also seem to e getting. Someone who didn't know me would probably assume that I had developed an eating disorder or something. That's how thin i seem to be getting!

She loves water too. If she cries just before I put her in water, she soon forgets about it the minute her feet touch the water. It's amazing how at peace she is once in the bath.

But I'm loving every single minute of motherhood. Every day is so new. She just experiences life in brand new ways. Ways that have become irrelevant to anyone over 12. I just stop sometimes and try to see what she sees and feels. It's truly amazing. Didn’t know I was capable of loving anyone the way I love my ray of pure sunshine. i  really can't imagine my life without her anymore. I really can't. nothing makes sense without her..

I love her cute little smile and the way she just seems to pout when i take a photo of her. I love it when she just stares at me with those big dark brown eyes of hers. I love the funny noises she makes when she's asleep and how  cute her little yawn is. I'm so in love with her and nothing and no one will change that..

 

3 weeks old and looking cuter than ever...