COMEBACK SEASON

07 September 2012

04:05 PM

I'M BAAAAACCK! That's right. Melissa is back and better than ever. I know, I know you guys missed me but I needed to take a hiatus and sort my life out big time. So here is the update for those who want to know and if you don't?! Well just suck it up and read dammit!

Last time any of you heard from me was in march. I was still in a bad space, not too bad but bad nonetheless but THANK GOODNESS for my daughter because she was the light at the end of my dark tunnel that I finally reached! Yay me! I am truly happier, healthier and more whole. I can't go back to who I used to be because the old me wasn't a mother. I'm loving life and life is loving me.

Last time you heard anything Aiko was only 2 months old. She's 7 months old now and she is the happiest, healthiest, loving, energetic, funny little girl. She brings so much joy to everyone here at home, that you can't help but smile. Did I mention how loud she's become?! I didn't?! Ah this child is loud. She's got so much to say and she tries to cram everything into 1 minute. My poor ears are still ringing from her screaming 3 weeks ago hehehehehe.. She also wants to start walking before she can even crawl properly. My child is so ahead of the curve that she's practically gone around the bend Lol… (Yes, I said it!). And her smile! Oh my word! Kills me every time. Lol… and sometimes she flashes it when she knows she's guilty of something. I can walk into a room, she'll look up and smile at me as if she's guilty of a crime. That cracks me up every time she does it because I check what it is she was doing.

On the other side of the spectrum, don't talk to A* much anymore. It seems we've hit that portion where he lives his life with his family and I live mine with Aiko. They don't see much of each other which I already predicted would happen a long time ago(if anyone remembers my previous posts). Don't doubt my powers of foresight. It doesn't really bother me much anymore because at least she has some males around her. They may not be her father but they're doing a great job. I doubt she even knows the difference right now except that mommy is around. Oh did I mention she's started to mouth out "mama"?! Like I'm not joking even my mother has heard her say it! It's pretty cool.

Got myself a job too. Saving up to go back to school next year. Going to study linguistics. My aunt believes that's where I should be and I don't doubt the woman because she earns a living in career counselling. Going to use my salary to pay for school seeing as the fees at UNISA are not going to drive me into crazy debt. I'm so excited that I'll be studying and it will be easier seeing as Aiko will be a proper little toddler next year. I'll be enrolling her into a crèche so at least she can start making friends and start playing with other children her age. Didn't think I'd be so excited to see my child going to school but it is another phase I must prepare myself for. AHHHHHHHH I LOVE MY KID!

Soon I'll be marking a year since the whole break up happened and the truth came out and when I think about how I was a year ago(a true emotional wreck) and how I am now, I'm grateful for what happened because it has made me a stronger person than I thought I could ever be. There were times when I thought I really couldn't make it but through prayer and the support of my family and friends, I am here today. And not just them I should thank everyone else also in my life who gave me words of encouragement or just took the time to read my blog. Thank you. It's been an absolute rollercoaster but it's one I guess I had to be on. It's a few days until my birthday and I'm excited. Not only at the prospect of turning older but at the prospect that there's more for me in life. Bigger, better and greater things are coming my way so it's only up from here!

Hope you're all good. Will update soon

Over and out